sudden anger

Boom .. up up up comes the anger
I want to hit something
throw something, anything
I pace around the room counting
10 won't cut it this time
I could count to a sodding million
and I'd still feel this burn

Who the fuck do you think you are
to talk to me in that way
I am going to do some serious damage
to you, oh christ no ... to me then
if I don't start breathing soon
whoosh ... and in and out and in
look away for gods sake don't stare

If I don't learn to get a grip
I'll be just like they were
and I can't allow that, I'm a grown up now
so I'll breathe in and out
focus right now only on that
as the panic recedes at least
I haven't done anything stupid yet.