A lie, just one to start with
but lies escalate and accumulate
ultimately taking their revenge
causing this unintended hurt
I never meant it to be this way
regret isn't a strong enough word
sorry doesn't come close either
if I tell you that I hate me too
will it ease your heart a little?


  1. Regret is strong medicine, but it doesn't cure others.

  2. I'm sure we can all relate. I know I can. Don't be so hard on yourself. Let go and go on. Love & Blessings!

  3. I say the same thing....self loathing must mean something. But it really doesn't, does it Jos. Self love is the only thing that really translates, and yet I am insufficient at best, bereft at most. And therein lies the biggest hearache.

    None the less, I love you like my own. Will continue to, loathing and all.


  4. Jos, i am glad you're back, i don't care if you are lying, you are here!

  5. I'm not one for regret. I do believe in intention. I believe in our fallibility, too. We need to be gentle with one another. We need to look at the fact that we all struggle. And then we need to be gentle with one another again.

    I'm reading a book called Comfortable With Uncertainty. I'm not religious by any means but it is a Buddhist introduction and in its basics it grants clarity. Easy read. Two page chapters. Helps me breathe.