Yes.Like fallingand knowing,KNOWING,that I'd be caught.xoerin
Ah Erin, I'm sure you're right.nearly 18 years together and now he tells me that he thinks I've always held myself back when we're together. Separate. I know it's true. And I am all too aware of how unfair that is. I suppose I thought he'd get used to it to the extent of not noticing any more. So he surprises me sometimes. My gentle man. xx
I do the same, but really I don't know how to do it any differently. I try. But there are broken things that I have come to realize will never be fixed. Abandonment in any regard is quite literally impossible at this point, complete abandonment of self included. Oh, but I try. And isn't loving within that kind of effort worth something? To continue shaky footfalls forward in that that comes naturally to others, because you love your gentle man...that much!!! So much as to keep pushing closer, more naked, more vulnerable.Love you!annie
wow. the question is profound, and so are the comments.i don't know how to answer this. sometimes i think i don't hold back enough. isn't trusting helped or hindered by the good intentions (and patience) of another? and i think we grow in different ways at different rates at different times. i know i love. i think that counts alot. and jos, i know you love too.♥kj
i can honestly say yes, finely now, i can say yes.~robert
Who are we holding back for? Unless we give ourselves completely, fears and all and learn to trust ourselves to be safe in that unknown territory, we are not living. Close your eyes and let go. You may learn to fly.
Jos - Have you ever given yourselfinto the arms of YOURSELFin complete surrender?If you asked me that one, I would be more unsure....Grete
Sorry sorry ... I am crap at coming back and responding.Annie, you know my heart ... I will keep trying to step forward ... even if it is only baby steps ... it's still in the right direction right?.KJ, you're so right ... I grow but unless you look very closely you'd never notice!Robert, how brilliant ... I am so glad ... and I wish.Ah Allegra, what can I say? You are brave. To trust myself to be safe in that unnknown territory is indeed to live more fully. I can only try ... my wings look so small though.Grete, no, I never have. I've never even thought about it like that. You see things in a special way ... you know?Thank you xx