Missing you

I was all right
well sort of
then you hugged me
and I fell apart
that's what happens
when you show
kindness

I know that I already
said it undoes me
because it does
and I'm left here
trying to find a way
to make it OK
but it isn't

So I'm left with
shame and pain
not your intent
which adds to it
see I do understand
but I can't help
to put it right

Except in this way
to do it here
in my safe place
where I can write
what I can't say
so many things
like I miss ... you