I'm not sure why it's taken me so long to find my way back here. I was reminded today about my blog and I thought "oh yeah, why haven't I been writing there?"
Partly it's because I don't feel like I have a good handle on things which makes me feel ashamed .... and like hiding away from everything and everyone. Strangely this is the same way I felt when I was drinking. Maybe this is what it means to be a dry drunk? I don't know.
Depression continues to be an ongoing problem although the meds do help somewhat. Ah yes, this is why I haven't been blogging. I'd rather not touch base with my inner landscape when it feels so bleak.
It's a funny thing ... on the outside my life looks pretty good. Plenty of people would love to have the things I have. I hear a lot about the need to practise gratitude and I think it's something I really really need to do.
Three things I am grateful for today;
A chat on the phone with my brother
A lot of lovely comments about a picture I posted on FB
Finding the joke above funny because my "little" sister was taller than me from the moment she stood up.